...that thought came to me this morning while I was doing the breakfast dishes the kids left behind in our normal whirlwind to get them out the door on time.
It was a bit cooler this morning, but it has been a beautiful fall. The last few days have been unseasonably warm. It was even clear and warm for Halloween! The colors were brilliant this year - though I hardly found any acorns - and I love acorns. They always make me smile. I guess because they look like nuts wearing berets.
Now as I was standing at the kitchen sink this Thursday morning, the kids were successfully dispatched, I had a couple of eggs frying on the stove, and I had an old LP of Holsts The Planets playing on the stereo.
And that thought came to mind, Its been a great ride.
I dont know why exactly. Maybe it was because a nurse from the insurance company had just called to see how I was doing. I am doing well, I told her, but, I guess subconsciously I was thinking it could have just as easily gone the other way.
So, I got to thinking that, one way or the other, it HAS been a great ride (of course, I dont ALWAYS think so!).
But that phrase implies that it will come to an end. Like a great ride on a roller coaster, or a wonderful vacation to New England in the fall, no matter how great or how wonderful, all things come to an end sometime.
Except for one thing. The love of God.
That will never end. And, though Gods love for me is already at its fullness, my experience of it keeps growing and growing - and will likely keep growing on into eternity - as he draws me closer and closer to him, into the warmth and brilliance of his presence.
So, I have to ask myself, Why do I keep trying to find my happiness in things that wont last, instead of in the love and presence of God?
I look at my day, and where do I direct my energy? Playing with the kids, watching TV, doing dishes, listening to music, playing with the computer. All perfectly fine things - But how much time do I give to God?
How much time do I spend praying? How much time do I spend considering God and his amazing goodness? Compared to everything else - not much. Duh!!!!
I am not too smart sometimes.